I just hope that one day he'll not only see but feel something special in me. But I'm beat waiting, and he's the only option I've got. Shall I give this a try? Or should I not?

It's just hard to remain friends with someone you're so attracted to and you don't know if you're being obvious of what you genuinely feel about the person, and if the person also feels the same way. But he keeps on talking about that straight guy who dumped him and what should he do. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. And it's also hard because if ever the feeling is mutual, he has to return back to New York and then what's going to become of us? I don't want to be in a long-distance relationship with someone especially when it's the other person's first time to be in a relationship.

And I can't know what to do. I don't know how to not stop believing, and to hold on to that feeling. I'm serious.