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It still hurts, you know?
It hurts when I remember all of a sudden the way how we met.
It hurts for me how I can't emote on the bus to work. I wish buses didn't have windows.

How do I maintain oblivion that everyday will be a good day. That I won't miss you.

It hurts because I feel I'm stuck. I want to move on, but my heart is refusing me. Like I'm frozen to the ground. I want to leave, but I feel lost. I don't know where I am and I don't know where to go.

I wonder who you watch those new movies with. We used to go on a lot of dates watching movies. It's either I buy the tickets or pay the food. Who ever has more money to spend. It pains me reading those new status messages on Facebook about how you love this movie, this food. While we were still together, we rarely chanced on watching the good ones that you would love. You were hard to impress.

I'm still hurting, and it looks like it's nothing to you. But yes, you won't see me crying. Because even if you weren't looking, I haven't cried for you yet.